Boston

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

You don't know me, you don't even care...

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.

- "Boston", Augustana

When I was young, I would dream of one day waking up to find myself having gone back in time. And I would have done things so very, very differently. Even then, I knew I already had made so many mistakes in my life... said things I shouldn't have said, did things I shouldn't have done.

Sometimes, I wonder how things would have turned out if I have done things differently. Said different words. Restrain myself from doing stupid things. Maybe I might be a far more different person from the one I am now. More mature, wiser, optimistic...more FUN to be around with. In far less pain then now anyway, I'll settle for just that.

Then again, its the process of what I've gone through that led me to this point isn't it? Unless I retain all my previous memories, experiences and knowledge, if I somehow do ever wind up going back to my past, I'll just fuck it all up all over again.

Sigh, looking back, that dream was just plain stupid. The closest thing possible to that though would have been me moving off somewhere, someplace where I was a total stranger and starting from scratch. And that has always been a thought lurking in the recesses of my mind. To leave all my failures, mistakes behind and start anew. Afresh. A clean slate.

Yeah right, like thats gonna happen.