Sorry

Oh I had a lot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry 'bout all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all of your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry 'bout all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah
Sorry!

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry 'bout all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby.
Yeah, I'm sorry.

- "Sorry", Buckcherry

I'm sorry.

I never meant to hurt you the way I did. I never meant to hurt you at all. What I did, I did it thinking...no, KNOWING its the best course for us. The only thing I blame myself for is dragging my feet about it. I should have just acted the moment I knew what I had to do.

No, no excuses. I've hurt you deeply and for that, I'm sorry. I can only hope that you'll forgive me one day. As for the rest, let's leave it up to God. Only he knows what the future holds....

Chill out

Four letter word just to get me along
It's a difficulty and i'm biting on my tongue and I
I keep stalling, keeping me together
People around gotta find something to say now

Holding back, everyday the same
Don't wanna be a loner
Listen to me, oh no
I never say anything at all
But with nothing to consider they forget my name(ame, ame, ame)

They call me 'hell'
They call me 'Stacey'
They call me 'her'
They call me 'Jane'
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

They call me 'quiet girl'
But i'm a riot
Mary, jo, lisa
Always the same
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

I miss the catch if they throw me the ball
I'm the last kid standing up against the wall
Keep up, falling, these heels they keep me boring
Getting clamped up and sitting on the fence now

So alone all the time and I
Lock myself away
Listen to me, Oh no!
Although i'm dressed up, out and all with
Everything considered they forget my name(ame, ame, ame)

They call me 'hell'
They call me 'Stacey'
They call me 'her'
They call me 'Jane'
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

They call me 'quiet girl'
But i'm an riot
Mary, jo, lisa
Always the same
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

Are you calling me darling?
Are you calling me bird?
Are you calling me darling?
Are you calling me bird?

- "That's not my name", The Tings Tings

After all the emo posts, here's one thats just silly and pure fun. Just like the song. So damn catchy and groovy haha.

Our song

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look around, turn the radio down
He says baby is something wrong?
I say nothing I was just thinking how we don't have a song
And he says...

Chorus:
Our song is the slamming screen door,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was walking up the front porch steps after everything that day
Had gone all wrong and been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway, well on my way to my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice all the roses
And the note that said...

Chorus

I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song...

Chorus

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I wrote down our song

- "Our song", Taylor Swift

Whenever I listen to songs, I tend to associate it with particular memories...people...events...heck even items sometimes. Happens kinda randomly though. I sometimes even associate certain artistes to certain individuals...although now when I think about it the people whom I do so are kinda similar so maybe there's a reason for that.

I also remember one song that may be kinda childish, but was...is very dear to me. Granted, I didn't know the lyrics then and use to sing it all wrong all the time...but I guess the lyrics of the song wasn't so important as to the intent behind it. It was...our song.

And I still remember it even now. With all the correct lyrics too lol. Although I wonder if I'll ever sing it again.

In christ alone

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

- "In Christ Alone", Brian Littrell

Once again, I tried to live by my own strength, my own rules.
Once again, I was humbled.
I only wished I hadn't dragged others down with me.
And now, once again, I surrender to him and lay it all at his feet...

...for now? Am I doomed to eternally struggle against myself, my pride, my hubris, my ego??!! This isn't the first time nor the last time I had this problem...n I guess it won't be the last either.
Its just that its so alien a concept in our day and age to let go and surrender all when all the while we're being taught to take control of our lives and seize opportunities.

Then again, some things are truly beyond our control. Even the best laid plans, the subtlest manipulations and strongest will in the world still fail. We are, after all, only human. Damn.

*Random: When I thought of the line 'only human', I automatically followed it with 'dodge this'. A worrying sign, no?*